I was diagnosed with cav mal and had surgery in Feb 2017, I never knew there were other people like me out there. My cav mal was close to my cerebral but deep inside my brain so they had to cut through good tissue to get to it in the back of my head. I didn't disclose my condition for a couple of reasons.... I had to wrap my head around the fact that my brain has been bleeding and it could potentially lead to stroke, coma, or death, and no doctor could tell me when it start, why it started, how it start. And also because I didn't want to disclose to too many ppl I know because they would automatically put some kind of disability or look for a sign that something was wrong with my brain. I went through surgery and had to do rehab, I was determined to become normal again, I had to re-learn how to think pretty much, and how to walk normal again, balance and everything. Recovery is the hardest thing I have had to go through in my life because no one know what i go through on a daily basis... like REALLY know. I'm still recovering, still have headaches in my scarring area (not normal headaches). I have learned to know my limit on my body now, and this experience just bought to me a whole perspective of life and how much we should cherish it. On the outside I look normal, no one can tell that I had brain surgery but on the inside it's a different story. At times i feel like I'm alone in this battle but a refuse to giveup. I started thinking positively and teaching myself that I am still important and this disease is not going to overcome my life. My motto going into 2018 is ELEVATE POSITIVE THINKING. Now at this moment i'm ready to tell the world about my journey so far and hope that it brings some peace and joy to those who are going through things. I even created a clothing line not only is it encouraging for me to say those words but I want it to be encouraging for other no matter what they are experiencing. I hope to find support and encouragement in this grp.
